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yesterday i did something wrong again… hai, y m i always like tat?? told myself dunno how many times to tok to her in a nice way but again n again i made tis stupid mistake… wat e hell m i doing ?? y can’t i juz dun make her feel so hurt n sad?can’t i juz change my stupid att??? i feel so regret n almost cry when i was on my way back hm..she juz nicely asking mi to acc her for awhile, but i juz ans her back in an att way saying "u go find other, i not free…" i should not haf say tat to her lor..how can i treat tat person who is most closely to mi?? hai… y everytime ppl tends to regret only after tat incident??y can’t they tink before they act… i noe i had hurt her many times le, but y i only noe how to regret instead of changing myself.. wat’s wrong wif mi??? i really dunno… perhap i should juz shut myself n tink hard abt it.. Anyway juz wanna say "I M SORRY" to her, but she will neber know tis coz i dun even say it infront of her…i m useless.. juz useless… begin to hate myself  !!!!

Is 1 am n yet i m here blogging …  heehee i m so happy tat my exam is finally over liao.. ya can go enjoy liao le.. tis few days was so stressful till can’t pig at nite …so tired now sia.. hmm recap of wat i have beeing doing tis few days… was bz studying lor .. wat else can i do?? heehee.. got things wanna mention here..

i have beeing dreaming of u for e past few days.. those happy times we spend together in e dream… it was really a sweet dream, but after all is juz a dream..back to real life, i m not as happy as i m in e dream.. y muz everything happen juz in e dream n not real life?? i can only get my happiness in the dream not real life???? Can someone pls tell mi e ans?? but i really treasure those times i spend wif u in e dream.. (muz be thinking i mad liao ixxit, but i m not k!!) Juz let it be e sweet memories kept in my heart …

Happy belated V day to everyone…so did everyone enjoy themselves yesterday?? i guess so .. heehee well as for mi, i went to watch i not stupid too wif oldman at ps..when i reach there, he pass mi V day present.. so shy lor coz i tell him dun buy for mi le.. but he did… (thank oldman)..as we r quite early for e show, so we walk ard … wanted to look for some gift for Y but was too bz chatting on phone, didn’t really went to e shop n choose…hehee..i guess he feel very bore so i hang up e phone…it’s time for us to enter e cinema..

E show was really very touching lor … almost cry, but i didn’t …heehee coz i scare ltr nit to touch up on my make-up..but i was really touch by e story line.. was thinking of some stuff during e show, i really very confused…i dun even no wat i really want now or in e future..tat is why i m so moody since after e show.. (sorry oldman for giving u tat att).. all i nit now is time…gif mi some time to sort it out.. anyway i did enjoy myself yesterday… 

Went to Suntec wif S today.. was gg over to buy present, as we parked e car at MS so we went of there to walk first…when i walk pass e goldheart shop.. guess wat i m thinking… yes!!!! e pendant which i like it alot…but end up neber buy again.. dun even noe wat i m thinking.. like it so much but yet neber buy … hai.. so we went to look for present… suddenly S say wanna go catch a movie n we head toward e cinema there.. but coz there is not much show over there.. S say go suntec n watch.. so in e end we head toward suntec.. finally brought e ticket at suntec.. as e show start at 4.45 n we only left abt 1/2 hr to shop.. so we decided to continue shopping after e show…

After e show.. we continue to shop for present.. end up we only brought a shirt coz of poor response from my frenz which make mi so angry.. hmmp!!we was damn hungry after e show, so we went for dinner..actually wanna bring him to e place where my cousin brought mi there a wk ago.. but end up we went to e food court.. After dinner, he suggest of gg to esp … then i say y not we go to e river hong bao n walk, n he agree.. then suddenly he say ltr got firework at esp… heehee firework leh… so i juz walk for abt 5 min at river hong bao n we went over to esp.. it was so crowded over there.. we quickly went to find seat n wait for e firework to start… A loud sound was heard suddenly n i saw firework.. yes it’s firework!!! right infront of mi… heehee so happy… thank S for tat.. but too bad it only last for 5 min.. but good thing normally does not last long.. as long as i enjoy tat short moment.. i m happy le..

Was damn angry on sat becoz of tat uneducated aunty.. wtf she scold mi shit..neber c such a person before lor..so angry.ok e thing happen when i went to work on tat day..due to only one function at nite,so i went over to help out at other function room. it was a wedding hi-tea for tat day..i was told to help V and so i went over to find her… Everything was fine at first but when coming to serving dessert time, suddenly got one aunty ask for my help.. she wanna get some boxes from mi so tat she can ta bao foods back hm.. becoz it is e rule tat we can’t allow guest to ta bao foods, i ask my supervisor to tok to her.. she look so disappointed at first but ltr on, she started her stupid nonsense.. started to scold us saying y they can’t ta bao since they had already paid $$.. say e staff wanna eat after they left..

Wat i & V can do was juz stand there n look at her.. maybe she tink we can be bully so she keep on adding .. she even say better if we eat n become barbie.. POS, i was so angry when i heard tat so i stare at her.. tink she saw tat n she point at mi n scold mi "You shit".. At tat moment, i feel like chasing her out of e room..but i can’t.. all i can do is keep staring at her..Arrgh !! spoilt my mood sia..i can’t take it so i complain to my supervisor right infront of e host..

Finally my ADNK interview is over… quite disappointed in the lab assignment,coz actually we can do better de but hai… one more project to go n i m free… The network security project due next tue… but u noe wat, i haven even started yet… wat happen to mi??? y m i so slack tis sem… i nit to pull up my socks liao le… jia you jia you…

Yesterday went to MS wif S to go shopping.. saw a key pendant from goldheart… it was really really nice n i like it alot.. but noe wat it was 600+++ but got 50% so after less is 319.. at tat moment i feel like buying it.. but in e end i neber.. hai dunno y oso.. After shop at e goldheart, we went to eat at tis restaurant name something la mian de (Can’t really remember).. had tis bery big bowl of beef la mian, omg it was really very big sia, i tink is for 2 person de lor.. but end up i 1 person finish it.. heehee big eater hor?? then went to river hong bao to meet my sis n V their all.. then after walk ard there.. went to cine to watch moive (Fun with Dick n Jane).. coz e show start at 1.35 am when e time is only 12.30am.. we went to take neoprint.. ha ha it was real fun yesterday coz we can lent those hats from them n all of us choose one each.. we look damn funny on those hats.. maybe will upload in my friendster next time..